Why?

I was having a greAT WEEKEND. AN AMAZING WEEKEND I HAD A BOYFREIND I HAD A PROM DATE MY DAD SEEMED TO LIKE MY BOYFRIEND I WENT TO A PARTY. THEN I CAME HOME SUNDAY, TODAY, AND I WAS TRING TO GET OVER MY HEAD ACHE, I WAS ON THE PHONE WITH KEREBERE AND MY AUNT WALKED IM. I KNEW SOMETHING WASNT RIGHT, I TOLD KEREBERE I HAVE TO GO. MY AUNT WALKED OVER SAT ON THE COUCH LOOKED AT ME AND SAID SOMETHING BAD HAS HAPPENED ..THEN SHE TOLD ME... AND NOW I I CANT GET OVER THE FACT OF HOW I TREATED HIM AND HOW MUCH HES FAMILY IS HURTING RIGHT NOW ..AND I CANT DO SHIT.. I HATE BEING POWERLESS...I ALWAYS HAVE IN THIS KINDA THING....BUT I CANT SEEM TO GET OVER THE FACT THAT HES GONE .... HES GONE...HES GONE... AND I CANT APOLIGIZE FOR BEING A BITCH. I CANT DO ANYTHING... NOTHING...HES GONE...HE WAS ONLY IN MIDDLESCHOOL!...HE WAS JUST A KID. IT DOESNT MAKE SENCE. WHY!