Crying

i find myself crying everyday
i want this internal rain cloud to dry out
but it just keeps comeing... i cant seem how to grasp that
hes gone
he really wasnt that strong
he was only a kid
i need to talk i need tyo converse my thought with some one
but im left empty handed when it comes to that everyone i try to talk to it about up and disappears they all leave they dont want to deal
i dont want to deal
i need to deal

fuck...

im head over heals and scared of falling and breaking my neck...

i know its not my place to tell you what to do who to see where to be.
but cant i be allowed my opinion of people...?
trouble seems to follow this person in search of the kill..
i dont want you taken away from me..
you have to be thinking somethings not right with him also...
you where so excited for me to meet all of your friends and your family..
and this dude it took 5 times of me seeing him before u introduced us...
it was twice before you introduced me to cody...
you dont stay in the room to talk
your secretive...
that shit scares me...
i dont want to worry but i dont know how not to.
i just want to be able to know ur out haveing fun when ur not with me
and i dont understand how ur mind will let u not stress when ur with someone who is fucking running...
i wish you would just stick to the people your proud of me to meet.
and i hope your still proud to call me urs...
i love you... i care about u... i promise im not trying to be your mother..
i just dont want to loose you so i worry.