Crying

i find myself crying everyday
i want this internal rain cloud to dry out
but it just keeps comeing... i cant seem how to grasp that
hes gone
he really wasnt that strong
he was only a kid
i need to talk i need tyo converse my thought with some one
but im left empty handed when it comes to that everyone i try to talk to it about up and disappears they all leave they dont want to deal
i dont want to deal
i need to deal