Who'll stop the rain.

Every time it rains our life is screwed up for the duration of the storm and the morning after... its raining tonight... and i hate it so much... i just want to talk to her and that cant happen .. i know i can be to clingy or hung up... but i want to spend every second talking to her that i can... its how i trying to make up for not getting to see her...i know the message i left her will make her upset or feel bad... and i feel like crap for that... i let my emo-selfishness kick in way to quick and now she wont be herself, she'll be sad... i miss her... i fell asleep so fast last night.. i dont even remember falling asleep... i didnt take 5 mins to tell her good night or anything... nothing... and now i cant talk to her... and something is wrong weather, moon, past,... something is wrong with me... everything makes me want to hide and cry. that is my biggest worry... i cried on the phone ... i didnt mean to but my spark of sadness turned into a bonfire really quick ... and i just lost it...ill be out at work staying the night tomorrow... and i wont get to see her most likely... i hate this... i wish i had my car... and my cell ... although if i could call her when ever she would probably turn her love into hate so fast.. im the most annoying person youll ever meet at times... and im so scared cause what will happen if shes not there anymore? what will happen when i cross the line... what will happen when i fuck up the first time... have i already done that?
i love her... i miss her... i dont want to mess this up.
i want the rain to stop.