james blunt...

"Tears And Rain"

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

Tears and Rain.

Tears and Rain.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.






So, the past 2 weeks( i thinks its only been that long) i have been freaking out... and i know it must be annoying... im so scared that my nervous texting will annoy her away from me... like last night she was at a friends and i knew she really didnt need to be bothered... and what do i do i text her 6 times... last night then was extremely rude this morning... and i dont mean to be and i dont normally notice it till later.... and i feel like poo cause im bothering the shit out of her... and im really scared that if i dont find a way to calm down soon ill have done some serious damage if i haven't already...
and im scared... i dont want to fuck this up... but all my life thats what iv been and i dont know how to not do that.. ugg... ok im stopping typing now... cause im starting to tear up and i cant cry right before dinner or my guardian will be in a tizzy... ugg... i need hugs. and a brain.