CONFUZZLATION!!

- yes i just made up the word -
ok so yeah im writing again - shock gasp-
but lately ( like last six months )
iv been contemplating me as a person there
have been some changes i have attempted to make
changing friends choosing to do or not to do things...
and there has been this one nagging issue that i keep
thinking about and i thought it was fixed when i met this guy...
well not only did he move to GA he wont
even message me back on myspace
so that answer to my problem is null and void.
but recently ( last 2 months ) the question
has been in my head more and
more lately and trying to figure out where i belong...
and what i should choose
and the answer is becoming more unclear...
my religious background is not a help in this
at all i look at my aunt and see how well her church has done...
and FUCK ME this suck rawr. to the evil world of games...

help...